One and only

You've been on my mind, I grow fonder every day
Lose myself in time just thinking of your face
God only knows why it's taken me so long to let my doubts go
You're the only one that I want

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before
Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all
You'll never know if you never try
To forget your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me a chance
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile
Until the end starts

If I've been on your mind, you hang on every word I say
Lose yourself in time at the mention of my name
Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close
And have you tell me whichever road I choose you'll go

I don't know why I'm scared 'cause I've been here before
Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all
You'll never know if you never try
{ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/a/adele-lyrics/one-and-only-lyrics.html }
To forget your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me a chance
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile
Until the end starts

I know it ain't easy giving up your heart
I know it ain't easy giving up your heart

Nobody's perfect
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart)
Trust me, I've learned it
Nobody's perfect
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart)
Trust me, I've learned it

Nobody's perfect
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart)
Trust me, I've learned it
Nobody's perfect
(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart)
Trust me I've learned it

So I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me a chance
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile
Until the end starts

Come on and give me a chance
To prove I am the one who can walk that mile
Until the end starts

Adele.. i love her!!

1 month from now

I need a month. I'll get it back eventually ;-)

You have my heart and soul

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Happy

Shit happens. Not just to me. Sometimes, I brought shit to other people's lives as well. But terrible shit happened few years ago. It was just like eating bread that looks so good on the outside, but only to find out it's rotten on the inside. Lol. I know life is a risk. Everything is a risk. All the famous quotations about "we are young, we should take more risks, we should be bold... bla bla bla". I wonder if that is easily said than done. I admit, I had been scared and insecure. Still am honestly secretly deep down. The feeling is like giving away something so important but not knowing what will become of it. I find myself wondering is this true and eternal happiness.

It is really silly actually. Life throws something good at you, and you wonder and doubt anticipating for thr worst to come. haha. I know it was just precautionary steps but it's really exhausting doubting and comparing and analysing. Trust is something important. Hope, perserverence and does not envy. Keeps no record of wrong. I know as long as I do my part, whatever shit that is going to happen, I am going to look back and say "I have no regrets". After all, I gave my best and if shit were to happen, the shit is not my problem. I can't control others. At this moment, I can only give my best and hope for the best.

Happy

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything

Don’t you take chances
You might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain
’cause love won’t set you free

I can’t stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
just can’t let go
just trying to play my role
slowly disappear

But all these days
They feel like they’re they’re same
Just different faces
different place
Get me out of here

I can’t stand by the side
Ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by
http://www.elyricsworld.com/happy_lyrics_leona_lewis.html

So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
my feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I’m just trying to be happy

Oh, happy
Oh

So any turns that I can't see
Like I'm a stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy
Happy
I just wanna be
Oh
I just wanna be
Happy.

Insomnia.. kakaka

What I do when I can't sleep? GO ONLINE! lol. My inability to sleep tonight could be I was overexcited by the CNY celebration that just ended few hours ago. Or it could be my happiness that everything turned out great. Or it could be pondering over something that clearly shouldn't be focused over. They say humans ( or it could be just negative people ) are never fully satisfied. They sometimes allow one small unhappy/drawback/mistake/disappointment to affect the overall picture of amazing events that happened. Hm Hm Hmm.. *wonder wonder*

Anyhow, it's such a relief the event turned our great. Yay!! We put so much effort into it. Hoho. If I was an audience that night, I would have damned enjoyed it. I think it's even better than the one in main campus. And this is not a biaz point of view! haha. Because we have limited resources, limited manpower, limited facilities and yet we made the most out of it! haha... fuh.. self gloating.

Alright, I still can't sleep... What else can I write about? *think think*. Okay.. in the process of thinking, my brain is tired already. Goodnight =)

Let's flyy up up here we go~

Here we go, come with me,
There's a world out there that we should see,
Take my hand, close your eyes
With you right here, I'm a rocketeer

Let's fly, fly, fly, flyyy.
Up, up, here we go, go.
Let's fly, fly, fly, flyyy.
Up, up, here we go, go.
Where we stop nobody knows [knows],

Where we go we don't need roads [roads],
Where we stop nobody knows [knows],
To the stars if you really want it,
Got, got a jetpack with your name on it,
Above the clouds in the atmosphere [phere],
Just say the words and we outta here [outta here],
Hold my hand if you feelin' scared [scared],
We flyin' up, up outta here.

Here we go, come with me,
There's a world out there that we should see,
Take my hand, close your eyes,
With you right here, I'm a rocketeer,

Let's fly, fly, fly, flyy.
Up, up here we go, go.
Let's fly, fly, fly, flyy.
Up, up here we go, go. [Here we go]
Where we stop nobody knows [knows],

Baby we can stay fly like a G6,
Shop the streets of Tokyo get your fly kicks,

Girl you always on my mind,
Got my head up in the sky,
And I'm never looking down feelin' priceless, yeah,
Where we at, only few have known
Go on the next level, Super Mario
I hope this works out, Cardio,
Til' then let's fly, Geronimo.

Here we go, come with me,
There's a world out there that we should see,
Take my hand, close your eyes,
With you right here, I'm a rocketeer,

Let's fly, [Yo]
Nah I never been in space before,
But I never seen a face like yours,
You make me feel like I could touch the planets,
You want the moon, girl watch me grab it,
See I never seen the stars this close,
You got me stuck off the way you glow,
I'm like, oh, oh, oh, oh
I'm like, oh, oh, oh, oh,

Here we go, Come with me,
There's a world out there that we should see,
Take my hand, close your eyes,
With you right here, I'm a rocketeer,
Let's fly, fly, fly, flyy.
Up, up here we go, go.
Let's fly, fly, fly, flyy.
Up, up here we go, go.
Where we stop nobody knows, knows, knows.



I'm so in love with this song haha

An Education

I was lucky to catch this film after my STPM as it wasn't even aired in Malaysian Cinemas. Haha. I got it through the traditional illegal way. (my friend downloaded it =p). This is a very unique "coming of age" movie. In the London suburbs of 1961, life was pleasant, but not exciting. It first introduced the lead character whom is Jenny, a 16-year-old girl. She is bright, pretty and on her way to be accepted into Oxford University.
But her uneventful life changed when she met David, a man almost twice her age. He soon charmed her and they began a romantic relationship. David introduced her to his friends and together, they explored cultural activities. He was able to convince her parents by going all out to prove that his interest in her is not improper. They allowed him to take her to concerts, dinners and even to Paris. Back then in the 1960's, going to Paris was a very exotic thing to do. The colours soon came to Jenny's life and she was the talk among her friends in school for dating an older man and being able to see Paris.
"Silly schoolgirls are always getting seduced by glamorous older men."

Jenny soon got accustomed to the life David and his companions showed her. Along the way, she began to question the true meaning of life. Is life all about studying and working hard to be happy? Doing the same routined boring things every day and following the norm of society. Is there more to life than these? Instead of studying all the difficult studies, she could have fled to Paris and experience love living the life she had been dreaming of. David could easily offer to her all those.
"Studying is hard and boring. Teaching is hard and boring. So, what you're telling me is to be bored, and then bored, and finally bored again, but this time for the rest of my life? This whole stupid country is bored! There's no life in it, or color, or fun! It's probably just as well the Russians are going to drop a nuclear bomb on us any day now. So my choice is to do something hard and boring, or to marry my... Jew, and go to Paris and Rome and listen to jazz, and read, and eat good food in nice restaurants, and have fun! It's not enough to educate us anymore Ms. Walters. You've got to tell us why you're doing it."

When David proposed, she made the decision to forgo her studies. She dropped out from school. Okay, now the following will be spoilers. Jenny later learned of David's way of making money. Going to concerts, fancy dinners and art galleries, she realized they were all just a temporary phase. One day while taking Jenny and her parents for dinner, Jenny found a stack of letters in David's car and she discovered his deepest secret. She began to regret her decisions but all seemed too late already as she had already dropped out from school. All her classmates had already sat for the A levels and on their way to their respective universties. But of course, at the end, there is always a savior. None other than Jenny's class teacher. =)

Okay, to summarize, the reason why I love this movie apart from the vintage style, music and breathtakingly beautiful settings (Paris!!!), it conveys a very deep meaning especially for coming of age teens. This is the movie which I can really relate to. Although I'm no longer a teen but I'm still a "coming of age" adult. Haha. Sometimes, we wonder is life really worth living if it's the same old typical and boring ones every day. Having to study, going for exams, all the stress, they are all really weighing us down. We definitely reflect once in a while wondering, will doing all those make us happy? How wonderful my life would have been if I could meet a man who would show me places, bring me on tours, bring excitement and adventure into my life. Instead of having to study the amazingly bulky syllabus and going for exams. It's too difficult.

But there is a beautiful message being laid out from the movie. The truth? "There is no shortcut to achieve the life we want. School, study is sometime boring and hard, but we get educated, we learnt the meaning of life from it." =). This is very true. There is really no easy way in life. Everything is difficult. The only good things that come from easy ways are only temporary. By going through the hard way, we learn. We learn great values of life. =)

Here is the trailer of the movie. Highly recommended folks ;)

Blissful 2011

It's the first day of the New Year yo. Since it's new year, we are supposed to look forward and make a new beginning. But how come I don't feel a sense of liberation. haha. Perhaps because my exam is next week and celebrating events leave me heavy hearted.

I remember those silly times where I used to wish for a time machine. When it was 2007, I wished for a time machine to go back to June 2006. A time where I presumed was one of the greatest moment that happened to me. I was dead wrong of course. Haih. Can never go back. No matter how bleak and ugly the present is.

Happy new year again. New year resolutions? To be content and strong. =)