I don't know what is wrong with my attitude or perseverance or strength. I was unhappy due to certain instances which were actually very minimal. Just the thought of me being so easily affected is so disappointing. At that time, I suddenly felt like I needed to see a friendly face. So, I went over to a friend's apartment. Then, I dunno if it's by chance or just my stupid imagination, I actually stumbled upon this quote on her wall. haha. It says:
"There are two eternities that can really break you down. Yesterday and tomorrow. One is gone, and the other doesn't exist... So live today."
Then it really hit me. I was so easily affected because most of the time, I am always living the 'yesterdays' or the 'tomorrows'. Very rarely, I enjoy the exact moment now. I think what I'm trying to learn is we can't undo the past nor can we plan what will happen in the future. The most important thing is to just live in the present and enjoy the moment whether it is good or bad.
EOB block 1 is actually this coming thursday and I can honestly say I'm barely 50% prepared. The thought of it just now almost made me crazy but then, I remembered a piano story a wise person told me a year ago. What is the story about? haha. To summarize, the moral of the story is just to tell us despite what little time or resources we have left, as long as we proceed and never stop, it will be a warm sunshine in winter. =)
Of course, I am reminded of how lucky we are to have really helpful seniors that readily explained any of our bombarded questions. One of them can be seen giving "lecture" most of the time. haha.
Good luck and jia you my friends! =)
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Happiness
The life of every man is a diary in which he means to write one story, and writes another, and his humblest hour is when he compares the volume as it is with what he vowed to make it. -James Barrie
I want to convey how beautiful it is to close your eyes and dream. And then to open them and make that dream a reality. -Sean Combs (Puff Daddy)
You may be whatever you resolve to be. Determine to be something in the world, and you will be something. "I cannot," never accomplished anything; "I will try," has wrought wonders. -J. Hawes
Happiness is an attitude of mind, born of the simple determination to be happy under all outward circumstances.
To be truly happy is a question of how we begin and not of how we end, of what we want and not of what we have
Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love, to work, to play, and to look up at the stars.
It is not how much we have, but how much we enjoy, that makes happiness.
Somewhere there must be one made for this soul, to move it.
Count the garden by the flowers, never by the leaves that fall. Count your life with smiles and not the tears that roll.
Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.
There is something beautiful about all scars of whatever nature. A scar means the hurt is over, the wound is closed and healed, done with.
There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go.
You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present.
It's so curious: one can resist tears and 'behave' very well in the hardest hours of grief. But then someone makes you a friendly sign behind a window, or one notices that a flower that was in bud only yesterday has suddenly blossomed, or a letter slips from a drawer... and everything collapses.
Let no one who loves be unhappy... even love unreturned has its rainbow.
Happiness sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open.
Planning for happiness is rarely successful. Happiness just happens.
The best things in life aren’t things.
When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.
A bird does not sing because it has an answer; it sings because it has a song.
When we keep looking on the other side of the fence, we step on the flowers on our side.
All of us have been dying, hour by hour, since the moment we were born. Realizing this, let all things be placed in their proper perspective. . . . Remember, it is always later than you think.
And I leave you now, not with sadness but with satisfaction and joy that we came together and walked, arm in arm, through this brief moment of eternity. Who could ask for more?
Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadow
The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.
You never lose by loving. You always lost by holding back.
If you want happiness for an hour, take a nap. If you want happiness for a day, go fishing. If you want happiness for a year, inherit a fortune. If you want happiness for a lifetime, help somebody.
I want to convey how beautiful it is to close your eyes and dream. And then to open them and make that dream a reality. -Sean Combs (Puff Daddy)
You may be whatever you resolve to be. Determine to be something in the world, and you will be something. "I cannot," never accomplished anything; "I will try," has wrought wonders. -J. Hawes
Happiness is an attitude of mind, born of the simple determination to be happy under all outward circumstances.
To be truly happy is a question of how we begin and not of how we end, of what we want and not of what we have
Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love, to work, to play, and to look up at the stars.
It is not how much we have, but how much we enjoy, that makes happiness.
Somewhere there must be one made for this soul, to move it.
Count the garden by the flowers, never by the leaves that fall. Count your life with smiles and not the tears that roll.
Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.
There is something beautiful about all scars of whatever nature. A scar means the hurt is over, the wound is closed and healed, done with.
There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go.
You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present.
It's so curious: one can resist tears and 'behave' very well in the hardest hours of grief. But then someone makes you a friendly sign behind a window, or one notices that a flower that was in bud only yesterday has suddenly blossomed, or a letter slips from a drawer... and everything collapses.
Let no one who loves be unhappy... even love unreturned has its rainbow.
Happiness sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open.
Planning for happiness is rarely successful. Happiness just happens.
The best things in life aren’t things.
When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.
A bird does not sing because it has an answer; it sings because it has a song.
When we keep looking on the other side of the fence, we step on the flowers on our side.
All of us have been dying, hour by hour, since the moment we were born. Realizing this, let all things be placed in their proper perspective. . . . Remember, it is always later than you think.
And I leave you now, not with sadness but with satisfaction and joy that we came together and walked, arm in arm, through this brief moment of eternity. Who could ask for more?
Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadow
The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.
You never lose by loving. You always lost by holding back.
If you want happiness for an hour, take a nap. If you want happiness for a day, go fishing. If you want happiness for a year, inherit a fortune. If you want happiness for a lifetime, help somebody.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Dreams reality?
When I was small, I used to confuse between dreams and reality. Often, I mistook dreams for reality. I think this inability of mine to distingush between these 2 elements caused me to be delusional every now and then.
Sometimes, we will find that we are deviating from our real purpose and get lost in the process. ( or maybe it's just me. kakaka ) When that happens, the harsh truth will always be better than a white lie in the pretense of a noble act in order to not hurt our feelings. The truth no matter how cruel it is will stop us from getting further lost. It will help to bring us back to the right tracks and our original goals. Then from there, we can reflect and try to improve.
I had been sleeping for quite some time. It is time to wake up. The slap on the face really helps. I really needed that. Thank you very much.
So now back in reality, it is time to be productive! =)
Sometimes, we will find that we are deviating from our real purpose and get lost in the process. ( or maybe it's just me. kakaka ) When that happens, the harsh truth will always be better than a white lie in the pretense of a noble act in order to not hurt our feelings. The truth no matter how cruel it is will stop us from getting further lost. It will help to bring us back to the right tracks and our original goals. Then from there, we can reflect and try to improve.
I had been sleeping for quite some time. It is time to wake up. The slap on the face really helps. I really needed that. Thank you very much.
So now back in reality, it is time to be productive! =)
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Fleeting moment
"Nothing is more memorable than a smell. One scent can be unexpected, momentary and fleeting, yet conjure up a childhood summer beside a lake in the mountains; another, a moonlit beach; a third, a family dinner of pot roast and sweet potatoes during a myrtle-mad August in a Midwestern town. Smells detonate softly in our memory like poignant land mines hidden under the weedy mass of years. Hit a tripwire of smell and memories explode all at once. A complex vision leaps out of the undergrowth." ~Diane Ackerman, A Natural History of the Senses
I encountered this quote and found how true it is. I am sure most of the time, we will have trouble remembering something we had seen. What we see, we will inevitably forget but smell on the other hand is a much more significant aspect. The same scent which once accompanied us during childhood can bring so much nostalgia. Somehow, being exposed to the same type of scent brought us down memory lane and we felt as though we were experiencing the same moment again. It is as though a part of our brain has been unclogged. I love such moments. haha. It brings a really warm feeling.
Take my experience for example, I used to spray a strawberry scented mist on my hands before walking to tuition way back when I was young. The smell is somehow very strong that my dad often complained too frequently. Now, when I happen to spray the mist, I will somehow remember how I used to walk from home to the tuition place. Okay, this is a very lame example.
There are actually a lot of other occurences. The scent of papaya body butter from The Body Shop will always make me rememeber about Korea. Happy times happy times~
So, perhaps in years to come, certain smell can somehow trigger part of my brain to remember fleeting moments for instance, how clumsy my roommate is. ( She has not found my blog ) Just in case she finds it: perhaps in years to come, certain smell can make me remember how cute my roommate is. ( This is honest opinion )
Okay, just want to share an article I read from the star online about fleeting moments. It is not related to sense of smell. haha. Just click on the link below =)
Fleeting moments
I encountered this quote and found how true it is. I am sure most of the time, we will have trouble remembering something we had seen. What we see, we will inevitably forget but smell on the other hand is a much more significant aspect. The same scent which once accompanied us during childhood can bring so much nostalgia. Somehow, being exposed to the same type of scent brought us down memory lane and we felt as though we were experiencing the same moment again. It is as though a part of our brain has been unclogged. I love such moments. haha. It brings a really warm feeling.
Take my experience for example, I used to spray a strawberry scented mist on my hands before walking to tuition way back when I was young. The smell is somehow very strong that my dad often complained too frequently. Now, when I happen to spray the mist, I will somehow remember how I used to walk from home to the tuition place. Okay, this is a very lame example.
There are actually a lot of other occurences. The scent of papaya body butter from The Body Shop will always make me rememeber about Korea. Happy times happy times~
So, perhaps in years to come, certain smell can somehow trigger part of my brain to remember fleeting moments for instance, how clumsy my roommate is. ( She has not found my blog ) Just in case she finds it: perhaps in years to come, certain smell can make me remember how cute my roommate is. ( This is honest opinion )
Okay, just want to share an article I read from the star online about fleeting moments. It is not related to sense of smell. haha. Just click on the link below =)
Fleeting moments
Malam Kebudayaan MAP
This is the video of the cheers which our medical/nursing faculty of 2010/2011 won. Okay, maybe the video wasn't really clear but on the real day, we really really damn "bersemangat"
the following is our dance.(I didn't put the first 9 minutes. the video is too long and coincidentally it is broken into two parts. So, nvm la,I'll just display part 2 which is the fan dancing. lol) Anyway, it is quite messy and uncoordinated. We practised last minute and I for one, made several mistakes. haih.. but nvmla. Nobody seems to notice.
the following is our dance.(I didn't put the first 9 minutes. the video is too long and coincidentally it is broken into two parts. So, nvm la,I'll just display part 2 which is the fan dancing. lol) Anyway, it is quite messy and uncoordinated. We practised last minute and I for one, made several mistakes. haih.. but nvmla. Nobody seems to notice.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Buddy Night
This week is another week of orientation but it is by our 2nd year seniors. Okay, before that, I realized I'm extremely dumb for not bringing a camera with me all the way to Sarawak. There were so many beautiful sceneries to capture especially in the main campus. Now, they can only reside in my memory. ( I have a bad memory ) Anyway, this will be a very long and lengthy post as I wanna summarize (blab) about my two weeks' orientations.
Anyway, the system goes like this. It is a culture ( or maybe a custom, I'm not sure ) to have a buddy or better known as a senior that will guide the juniors in going through their university lives. So, the juniors will be given clues to find their respective buddies in a given duration. And punishment ( minor ones la ) will be incurred towards those who failed to find their respective buddies within the given time. So, everyone must be initiative lah. Tonight which was the buddy night will mark the end of our orientation and it is also an event where we can chat and get to know our buddies better. In order words, bonding between buddies.
I'm one of the lucky ones to have a very nice and helpful buddy. Happy~ :D Initially, most of us will be pretty envious whenever we saw our friends receiving notes from their buddies which made us wonder, "where is my buddy?". Okay, enough elaboration on that. So, for buddy night, my group was given the theme "akon". Honestly, we are absolutely clueless on what to perform as not only we are not naturally born dancers but we have no idea about hip hop dance as well. So, basically we just divided ourselves into groups and each group will discuss and come out with their own dance moves.
I'm really amazed by other group's performaces. They performed so extremely well that I feel so inferior and afraid to performe my own in front of them. I would say one of the biggest contribution to their excellence is their team work. Anyway, winning or losing doesn't matter. The most important thing is we've given our best and had fun. ( Okay, obviously I say that because I'm not one of the winners. Nothing new la since losing is something I'm very accustomed to. ) So, to others that probably feel quite bad, don't be as the highlight of the day is to learn and have fun. :)
The orientation by our 2nd year seniors are a very brief one as we had to combine with our lectures as well. And today is the first time I had mud, egg and flour splashed onto my face. I was speechless and dumbfounded for a few seconds when I found myself covered with mud, egg and flour. Most of the games were really fun especially the ones involving water. The nicest seniors that conducted the station games are the ones involving the blowing of candles. They are so thoughtful. lol.
Anyway, last week was our MAP. It was an orientation handled by seniors from Kota samarahan. Initially, I was sad with all the lack of sleep and home sickness. But I came to realize it was actually one the happiest and most fun moments in my life. (I lead a boring life. Experiencing such things made me a very jakun person) The LOs (Liason Officer) are extremely nice and helpful. They treated us like their own siblings. That's when I knew they really went through a lot of trouble to plan the activities to make our orientation a fun week. I am still missing them and the events that took place during the first week. It is a disappointment as they are so far from us now. As for our faculty seniors, we can still see them most of the time. Don't wanna see also will see. Oh yeah, probably will miss our 2nd year seniors when they go to Sibu for their 3rd year.
Okay, being a considerate roommate, I shall end here as I am leaving the lights on while my roommate is sleeping. Sigh, I'm so lucky too to have a tolerant and nice roommate. Also, she can sleep like a pig. So, it is definitely a plus for me whenever I need to leave the lights on for my own convenience. But I should stop torturing her for now. I'll post the video of our cheers which we won during MAP. Goodnight
Anyway, the system goes like this. It is a culture ( or maybe a custom, I'm not sure ) to have a buddy or better known as a senior that will guide the juniors in going through their university lives. So, the juniors will be given clues to find their respective buddies in a given duration. And punishment ( minor ones la ) will be incurred towards those who failed to find their respective buddies within the given time. So, everyone must be initiative lah. Tonight which was the buddy night will mark the end of our orientation and it is also an event where we can chat and get to know our buddies better. In order words, bonding between buddies.
I'm one of the lucky ones to have a very nice and helpful buddy. Happy~ :D Initially, most of us will be pretty envious whenever we saw our friends receiving notes from their buddies which made us wonder, "where is my buddy?". Okay, enough elaboration on that. So, for buddy night, my group was given the theme "akon". Honestly, we are absolutely clueless on what to perform as not only we are not naturally born dancers but we have no idea about hip hop dance as well. So, basically we just divided ourselves into groups and each group will discuss and come out with their own dance moves.
I'm really amazed by other group's performaces. They performed so extremely well that I feel so inferior and afraid to performe my own in front of them. I would say one of the biggest contribution to their excellence is their team work. Anyway, winning or losing doesn't matter. The most important thing is we've given our best and had fun. ( Okay, obviously I say that because I'm not one of the winners. Nothing new la since losing is something I'm very accustomed to. ) So, to others that probably feel quite bad, don't be as the highlight of the day is to learn and have fun. :)
The orientation by our 2nd year seniors are a very brief one as we had to combine with our lectures as well. And today is the first time I had mud, egg and flour splashed onto my face. I was speechless and dumbfounded for a few seconds when I found myself covered with mud, egg and flour. Most of the games were really fun especially the ones involving water. The nicest seniors that conducted the station games are the ones involving the blowing of candles. They are so thoughtful. lol.
Anyway, last week was our MAP. It was an orientation handled by seniors from Kota samarahan. Initially, I was sad with all the lack of sleep and home sickness. But I came to realize it was actually one the happiest and most fun moments in my life. (I lead a boring life. Experiencing such things made me a very jakun person) The LOs (Liason Officer) are extremely nice and helpful. They treated us like their own siblings. That's when I knew they really went through a lot of trouble to plan the activities to make our orientation a fun week. I am still missing them and the events that took place during the first week. It is a disappointment as they are so far from us now. As for our faculty seniors, we can still see them most of the time. Don't wanna see also will see. Oh yeah, probably will miss our 2nd year seniors when they go to Sibu for their 3rd year.
Okay, being a considerate roommate, I shall end here as I am leaving the lights on while my roommate is sleeping. Sigh, I'm so lucky too to have a tolerant and nice roommate. Also, she can sleep like a pig. So, it is definitely a plus for me whenever I need to leave the lights on for my own convenience. But I should stop torturing her for now. I'll post the video of our cheers which we won during MAP. Goodnight
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Who moved my cheese
If I can wish for one thing now, I wish that all good things will come to NO end. But that's only wistful thinking. Over the past years, I've always had difficulties coping with changes. Specifically changes that involved the end of happy moments in my life. Memories to me are not enough. I'm so greedy that I want to hold on and saviour every bits of them. Having experienced such happiness and to lose it is not something I can handle very well. It's so saddening to feel so happy and yet knowing it will one day be over.
Whenever subjected to such situations, I had been so complacent and comfortable that when it's gone, I will have trouble finding myself back to reality. I'm not talking about one type of happiness. How good it will be if I'm only affected by one type of happiness. But I'm affected by all kinds of happiness that after every happiness, there will be a phase of sadness and longing.
I guess the slogan "carpe diem" will be of better help for me to cope with such situations. I'm sure there will be much more happy moments in my life in the future and when that happens, I'll hold on to the principle of "carpe diem" and when everything is over, I'll have no more longing and regrets. It'll just be an extra part of my sweet memory and hopefully, reminiscing about it will make me smile without causing any heartache.
Whenever subjected to such situations, I had been so complacent and comfortable that when it's gone, I will have trouble finding myself back to reality. I'm not talking about one type of happiness. How good it will be if I'm only affected by one type of happiness. But I'm affected by all kinds of happiness that after every happiness, there will be a phase of sadness and longing.
I guess the slogan "carpe diem" will be of better help for me to cope with such situations. I'm sure there will be much more happy moments in my life in the future and when that happens, I'll hold on to the principle of "carpe diem" and when everything is over, I'll have no more longing and regrets. It'll just be an extra part of my sweet memory and hopefully, reminiscing about it will make me smile without causing any heartache.
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